Distance

In the depth of the night, I lay in my bed on my almost archaic mattress where it was possible to feel the springs physically punch you in the back for the duration of the night. I pull my faded pink floral duvet up past my neck as I try my best to feel even remotely comfortable but no matter how much I tossed and turned, I was left feeling cramped and shivering like a little lost puppy. The strong breeze that managed to seep through a tiny crack in my window each and every night was now far past frustrating and I would do anything to sleep somewhere other than my room.

There was one thing that helped me through the majority of these restless nights and that was him. I didn’t even need him beside me to feel warm and safe. Purely knowing he was mine and the fact that I would be seeing him shortly was enough to keep me going.

But when I’m lying alone in bed, holding my pillow as my  teeth are chattering away, I can’t help but wish he was holding me and talking to me about whatever would pop into his head. Sometimes his company is all I would need at ungodly hours of the day when I’m feeling lonely. It is moments like this, when there is nothing else to do but think about everything and then you suddenly understand how distressing distance is. It’s not like you can hop on a bus at 4am to go and see him even if it’s all you want at that particular time of day.

You begin to crave the moment you can finally hold him, laugh with him, watch films with him and the night seems to feel much longer and even more excruciating. But when that moment eventually arrives, the relaxation and the happiness is overwhelming and you struggle to think of anywhere you would rather be.

Lucky Escape

All the lies behind your eyes,
The things you used to say,
The number of ‘sighs’ and ‘whys’
We would argue every day,

How could I be so blind,
When you were that bitter,
You were rarely ever kind,
No wonder I became a quitter,

Until I found you,
A match made in heaven,
Staying wide awake past 2,
An early night would be 11,

I’m so lucky to have found,
Someone who makes me smile,
I’m no longer feeling drowned,
This is the happiest I’ve felt for a while. 

It’s not exactly the Oscars but…

I am proud to tell you all that my lovely friend Ella has very kindly nominated me for a blog based award called a Liebster award. ‘Liebster’ is German for ‘favourite’ therfore bloggers nominate their favourite blogs on various websites including WordPress.

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It is rewarded to bloggers who have less than 200 followers and comes with a number of rules:

  • Post eleven facts about yourself
  • Answer the questions posed by your nominator
  • Pass the award on to eleven new recipients
  • Pose eleven new questions to your bloggers

Post a copy of the badge on your blog (type “Liebster Award” into Google images; you’ll find plenty to choose from). Notify nominees and include links to the originating blog, as well as the new recipients.

11 facts about me

  1. I don’t know what I will do with my life when How I Met Your Mother ends
  2. I auditoned for Britains Got Talent in 2010
  3. I have pigeon toes (not literally)
  4. I want to go to university in London and live there
  5. I constantly joke about hating excercise and wanting food
  6. I want to see the Northern Lights from the igloos in Lapland
  7. I currently have a jar which I’m putting notes of all the good things that happen in 2013 in
  8. I am one of the 2% in the world with very green eyes
  9. My favourite place to eat is Nandos – you can’t beat it!
  10. My brother knocked my front tooth out with a torch when we were little and now it breaks on just about anything from french bread to toffee apples.
  11. Ever since I purchased my first bath bomb from Lush, if I don’t bathe without one, it just isn’t a successful bath.

Questions I was asked

  1. If you could go anywhere in the world where would you go?
    I would love to go to New York in the Winter or Canada.
  2. What would you do if you couldn’t write?
    I enjoyed food technology at school so maybe something to do with that.
  3. If you could invite anyone (dead or alive) on a date, who would it be?
    Leonardo Dicaprio in Romeo and Juliet – serious eye candy.
  4. Would you rather be successful in something you hated or fail in something you love? Definitely successful in something I hate because the thought of failing in something you enjoy is rather upsetting.
  5. Where do you see yourself in ten years time?
    I hope to be living in London doing any sort of career based on Journalism whilst writing fiction for fun!
  6. If you could have any fantasy creature as a pet, what would you choose?
    The little gingerbread man from Shrek, how cute would that be?!
  7. Can you cook?
    Oh you know it. I got an A in my food tech GCSE!
  8. Films or books?
    It depends, but I usually prefer books because they’re so much more detailed but I feel more emotion from films.
  9. Favourite genre of music? I listen to a bit of everything.
    I would say it is mainly Alternative Indie however I will admit that One Direction are my guilty pleasure…
  10. Who inspires you the most?
    I went to work at World Challenge for a week and the people there are incredible, they do everythinhg they can for countries and young adults. They’re really inspiring because they have all travelled to amazing places and they are all so kindhearted.
  11. What made you decide to write a blog?
    I study Journalism at College and part of our course was to set up a blog but I really enjoy uploading work that I produce outside of college too!

 My nominees

My questions to you guys

  1. If you could be an animal, what would you be?
  2. What is your favourite book?
  3. Something you say on a day to day basis?
  4. Most terrifying situation you have been in?
  5. What made you start your blog?
  6. Lucky number?
  7. If you had to write a short story about anything in the world, what would it be about?
  8. Have you always wanted to write?
  9. 3 words to describe yourself?
  10. Coke or lemonade?
  11. Do you believe in love at first sight

Thanks again to Ella for nominating me for this! I know it’s nothing huge but it is still a good feeling when you know that people enjoy your writing!

x x x

15/02/13

It’s my last day at World Challenge! I don’t want to leave! I’ve had such an amazing time and met some wonderful people and I could easily continue working here. I bought a card to thank them all for having me and for helping me have a really great week!

I also found the newsletter that I made for events yesterday on mailchimp: Newslettter for events 🙂

I started laying out the complete newletter because I have 7 features to go in, here they all are: EVERYTHING

Mailchimp is a very awkward website to use for the writing I have done because I’m not used to it and it keeps making everything different sizes and I got quite frustrated by it so I am now uploading my documents to InDesign and editing it there, I think I’m going to produce it as a paper newsletter to show people what I have made and if Matt does want to use it, someone will be able to edit it all for me to send out electronically, I don’t mind what happens with my work because I’ve enjoyed writing everything that I have written and in the process I have met so many inspiring people who have travelled to all these incredible places and everyone seems so passionate about what they do for a living.

Literally all day I was editing everything and making it look presentable, Matt had a look through all of my writing and made notes on it all to give back to me and I found this very helpful! I wrote up the whole newsletter on InDesign, and saved that onto my new World Challenge memory stick! 😉 Matt came to check up on me and let me leave an hour early because I got everything done! They also gave me a free mug… the mug I have been drinking tea out of all week! Haha!

Here is the newsletter: Newsletter_LO

 

 

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14/02/13

Happy Valentine’s Day everyone! Before I tell you about my day I want to talk to you about what I did last night, me and Clarissa who is the woman I am staying with stayed up writing Valentine’s Day cards for her children and a couple of their friends. She has 2 twin girls who are 9 and a little boy who is 6 and basically we wrote cards for them with cheesy little poems in and signed them with ‘love from ?’ so this morning at around 7:30, Izzy (one of the twins) ran into my room and showed me the card (which I had written) and it was so lovely to see a smile on her face and I found it so funny listening to them try and work out who had sent it! I enjoyed writing the cards too… I wrote this for a 9  year old boy:

‘Harvey Russell, you’re the one for me,
I want you to get down on one knee,
I’ll be with you forever more,
Because you’re the boy I adore,
When you look at me, my heart skips a beat,
Make me yours, sweep me off my feet!’

I find it so adorable writing cards for little children allowing them to guess who wrote it to them, it’s such a nice idea!

Anyhow,

When I arrived at work, I went to my desk and tried to finish the pensions article but I find writing about topics like that incredibly boring so I kept trying to put it off by proof reading my other work. At 10am I was going up to work with the events girls again and as soon as I got up there they told me we were packing bags again. This time was easier because we got into a routine however… We got really into it again, I had packed 90 bags before being told that the cereal bars don’t go in the abseiling bags! So we all had to route through the bags we had packed to take out all the cereal bars, it didn’t take too long though, we packed lots and lots of bags ready for the fundraisers and I’m doing that practically all day today.

But at 1pm we had a Valentine’s Day quiz, I was on a team with the girls from events and we called ourselves #teamyeah! Unfortunately we didn’t win, we scored a measely 19/47, oops! But the man who sits opposite me did win. I find him very funny, we were having a conversation about Valentine’s Day and he told me that he had bought a bottle of perfume his girlfriend asked for off eBay because it was half price but there was no box and someone had used a couple of sprays so he had decided to use the box from her old bottle of the perfume and put a few drops of water in to make it appear full, brilliant! So that quiz was fun, we all gave £1 to take part and that goes to a charity.

I had a meeting at 2pm with a man named Stu Morris who is head of safety and training, you can see my interview with him here: Staff spotlight

For the rest of the afternoon I went back up to events and produced a newsletter promoting their South challengers run, I don’t quite know how to get hold of that yet because I made it on a website called mail chimp but I will try and get it for you to have a look at! Hope you’ve all had a good day and below is a photo of the bag packing 🙂

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13/02/13

I arrived at the office at 9:30am and sat at my desk. I started working on the Al Shaheen story I did, and made it a couple of hundred words shorter.

I had an interview with a man named Rod Hicks at 10am who is a new joiner, he works in stores and has many roles in the business including head of logistics, facilities manager and fleet manager. It was interesting to find out a bit about him. I went back to my desk and wrote up that interview, I then gathered up all the information I had on the different parts of the world and started writing up and laying out my ‘news of the world’ piece which I will attatch as a word document below along with the rest of the work I have done today.

At 11am, I had an interview with a woman named Kate Jenkins who is part of the leadership management team, she places expedition leaders on relevant expeditions and manages their administration. She was lovely. I went back to my desk and added that to Rods interview. I then recieved a message off my friend Laura who took part in World Challenge in 2012, so I have completed the spotlight interview with a challenger feature and I will attatch that as well. At 2pm I had an interview with a man called Rob Berry, he is part of the planning team and World Challenge is his first career after graduating from University, he is the planning manager of East Africa and he has travelled to a lot of amazing places so I found his interview interesting. I went back to my desk and filled in his interview answers, so by 2pm today I had completed 3 new features for the newsletter, I now have 5 things to submit!

At 2:45pm I had a meetnig with Matt again, I handed in the work I have completed today along with the updated versions of the Fiji and Al Shaheen features, he said he would have a look and get back to me later on. I then drafted some questions for another spotlight interview with a member of staff named Stu Morris who is important to the health and safety side of the organisation. Matt gave me back the Al Shaheen piece and the News of the world piece with some annotations on them so I corrected them and started writing an article on the new pension schemes. It started snowing really heavily at the end of the day and tomorrow I’m with events again which will be good 🙂

My work from today:  Challenger spotlight printscreen , Spotlight interview with a member of staff draft, New joiner interviews draft , and News from around the world printscreen

12/02/13

Today I started at 9:30am again, I made my way over to my desk and met the woman who is sitting opposite me, her name is Sofia. She took me upstairs and introduced me to the 3 girls who are in charge of events. Their names were Hannah, Karen and Bex and all 3 of them are lovely!

They told me the brief plan of the day and they took me downstairs to the operations centre. They informed me about everything to do with events and that this time of year is the busiest for them. They have many runs and abseiling activities planned over the next few months with various schools and they told me they don’t have a free weekend for a lot of the year now!

They give each challenger a goodie bag at the start of their fundraiser event which contained a t-shirt, a goodie (wallets, water bottles, playing cards, caps etc) and a geo bar. They had 3 different coloured bags: blue, orange and green. And for about 3 hours, we were packing the bags. Small t-shirts in the blue, medium in the green and large in the orange. It was quite stressful because me and one of the girls got chatting a lot and ended up packing large t-shirts in the blue bags so we had to go through them all and sort that out but we had Bruno Mars playing so it was slightly more bearable! We must have packed about 300 bags!

They then took me back up to their desks where Karen and Bex showed me how they sort out the challengers consent forms. I went for my lunch break and when I came back they told me all about the social media they used. They showed me their facebook and twitter page. And let me write two stories for their facebook page! One called ‘challengers of the month’ which was about 2 girls who cycled to school every day to raise money for their expedition and I wrote one about Pancake Day fundraising ideas (see links below) I’m working with them again on Thursday which will be good fun!

http://www.facebook.com/notes/world-challenge-uk-events-fundraising/challenger-of-the-month-february-2013/568335073184370

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I came back down to my desk at 3:30pm, had a lovely cup of tea and then made my way to Pats office. Pat is the man in charge of the US business, he organises the Boston trips so I found out some information from him about global sites along with information I have on the middle east, south east Asia and South Africa which I will be writing about tomorrow.

I am now editing the stories I wrote yesterday after Matt proof read them and told me I had to cut them down by half!

Tomorrow I have 3 interviews and lots of writing to do! But I’m looking forward to it!

11/02/13

Sorry I have posted this a day late, I had no access to a computer until now! I was starting at World Challenge HQ at 9:30am so I woke up at 7:30 and got myself ready. Clarissa drove me to the office and I went up to meet Niki who is the woman I am shadowing over the next week. She made me a cup of tea and introduced me to a couple members of staff, my initial impressions were that they were all lovely!

Niki showed me where I would be working for the duration of the week and a man in her office is absent therefore I get my own desk which is great! She took me over to Matts office who is the boss of this HQ and he told me that he wanted me to work on a project.

The project is an e-newsletter. As World Challenge is all over the world, he decided an e-newsletter would be most efficient as anyone would have access to it from London to Australia! I took my notebook into the office and jotted down the ideas he had for this e-newsletter which included the following:

  • Project Domino which is a web project
  • Reservations project which doesn’t have a specific name yet
  • Al Shaheen project
  • Spotlight interview with a member of staff
  • Spotlight interview with a previous challenger
  • New joiners interview
  • Skype call with someone at the Australian HQ to find out about Global sites
  • Embed a video of a teacher speaking
  • Talk about new product: Fiji
  • Market focus on the US
  • New pension laws – how does it affect you? – speak to someone at Human Resources
  • Photo of building in the snow, compare with Bostons building

As you can see I have a lot to work on over the week and I am very excited about it! I have already written the story on Fiji, Al Shaheen and I have prepared interview questions for new joiners as I have 3 interviews on Wednesday. One with a member of staff from Stores, one in the Leader Management Team and someone from Plans so I’m looking forward to find out a bit of information about them. I have met lots of amazing people already and have drank my body weight in cups of tea but this is a great placement and I’m looking forward to tomorrow as I am working with the events team!

Here are the documents of the work I have produced today:  Al Shaheen draft Fiji draft Interview questions for new joiners

Holding Hands

Beyond the wrist, palm, fingers and thumb,
in the frost, each finger turns numb,

But what is more pleasant, than holding hands?

There’s something about strolling along a path,
brushing your hand ever so slightly against another,
Lying in bed,
feeling a hand reach for yours,

Everything is silent,
the beating of your heart becomes louder,
as your fingers interlock,

The air is clement,
but the warmth of your hand touching theirs is satisfying,
you feel safe, guarded, nothing can go askew.

Such a small action, such a giant impact.
Gentle, soft, enamoring. 

Where’s the world that doesn’t care? Maybe I could meet you there?

I woke up this morning only to discover that I had reached 1,000 views on my blog! I was so pleased when I saw this and felt like writing something. However, I appear to be suffering from extreme writers block at this current moment so I decided to take up the opportunity to use WordPress’ feature called ‘inspire me’ which seems to be a random generator giving you an idea to write about something, and the following text is basically my brief:

Take a line from a song that you love or connect with. Now forget the song, and turn that line into the title or inspiration for your post.

It took me a while to choose a line from a song because I usually listen to a song for the music however; I eventually came to a conclusion and decided to use a line from Meet you there – Busted. The following article is about how people care too much about what others think.

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I know this is an issue in today’s society because I feel under pressure to look presentable each and every day, even if I have nothing planned. And personally, I wish everyone had the same hair and skin, I wish make up didn’t exist and imagining a world where you can wear whatever you like without worrying about others judging you is extremely pleasant but I suppose one can only dream. Honestly, I don’t know why I bother sometimes, I have amazing people in my life and surely they couldn’t care less about what I looked like, that isn’t the reason they stick by me.

I think this is an issue that is a lot worse at a young age. Many teenagers follow the crowd to look good and prevent being judged. However, if you want to wear something outgoing then you have every right to do so. It’s simply the fact that you are paranoid about what others are going to think, if you walk down the street wearing something even slightly different to what would be classed as the norm, there is no doubt that another girl or boy of your age will look at you in a bizarre way and whisper something to their friend. It makes you feel looked down on but if you’re happy and comfortable with how you’re dressed and how you look, no matter how challenging it is, you have to rise above it. You may have heard someone saying things behind your back about your style, learn to ignore it. We’re in the 21st century and as sick as it is, bullies exist. And people are going to say things, and yes, it is disheartening but when people criticise how you look, they want a reaction and they want you to care. So surely that’s the last thing you want?

The worst thing you can do whilst trying not to care what others think of you is overthinking a situation. If you’re in the middle of a city or at school, look around and see how many other people are there. You’re not alone therefore, a lot of the time, people are probably not even judging you. Most people in this world don’t have the time to look at someone and soak in all their flaws and analyse them as a whole just by their imperfections, try your best not to think about what they’re thinking of you and bear in mind that they may be judging the people around you.

The people who care about what you look like are usually the ones who look at you with metaphorical microscopes as eyes and judge people they don’t even know for a mile off whereas people who don’t obsess over others tend to look at you as a whole person not just what you look like by the way you dress and how you have your hair and make-up. There is no point in wasting your time worrying what others think about you, it will make your life hell for a good few years if you continue to allow the criticism get to your head. If you begin to let yourself feel positive about yourself and your style, as you venture out into the public, you’ll feel confident outdoors too and will stop feeling like everyone cares about what you look like.

If you never accept yourself, as harsh as it is, people will never accept you. Be who you want to be. If people want to be an acquaintance of yours then they will not care what you look like or how you dress and if they do care then I can tell you now that they’re not worth a second of your time. If you’re someone who doesn’t judge others, then you’re instantly better than the people who obsess over how others look. Take no notice and walk around with a smile on your face at all times so everyone knows you don’t care what they think.

‘Where’s the world that doesn’t care? Maybe I could meet you there?’

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