We’d been in love for many years,
I found out and broke down in tears,
Why had this happened to my girl?
I’ll miss her blue eyes and her curls.
I helped her get through her chemo,
Held her as she rocked to and fro,
She cried into me; I felt weak,
I held her face and kissed her cheek.
It was July when I lost her,
I won’t forget what we once were,
She was beautiful, smart and strong,
She had to fight it for too long.
I was only 16 years old,
I’d lost my love, my heart was cold,
She will always be in my heart,
She always was, right from the start.
Raindrops on the garden flowers.
Sitting in the rain for hours.
The rain is warm, the mist is cold.
Sat there wanting a hand to hold.
The river water was so high.
Big puddles and floods, the town cry.
The sky dark grey, no cloud in sight.
Moist grass from the previous night.
It rains all night, it rains all day.
The sky remains a dark, dull grey.
The rain is bouncing off my face.
It soaks me through, my heart races.
I like the sun when it shines bright,
But you can’t hear the sun at night.
I miss the love we used to share,
Snoozing whilst he played with my hair,
Kissing my nose to wake me up,
Making tea in my favourite cup.
When we were young we were so free,
Spending whole days being lazy,
Cuddling up on the old blue couch,
Tickling me as I laugh; ‘Ouch!’
When I see young couples in love,
I feel him with me from above,
Memories start to come flooding back,
He’s guided me along this track.
I think about what we once had,
The fact he’s not here makes me sad,
He was my first love. I, his last,
I wish that he had never passed.
I glanced at them both from afar,
As he helped her out of his car,
He was tall with a lovely smile,
Her eyes bright blue, shone for a mile.
I kissed her lips and held her hand,
Her hair was golden like the sand,
Her blue eyes made me feel so lost,
She was mine and lucky, I was.
His smile was the best of them all,
We laughed and joked sat on the wall,
He held my waist, we walked away,
He made every day the best day.
They looked so happy and in love,
The kind of love I was free of,
I missed my lover most at night,
Being alone wasn’t quite right.
I had noticed him from afar,
Sat by the lake on his guitar,
I sat there alone in the grass,
And felt the time go by so fast.
When he was also by the lake,
I could feel my heart slowly shake,
I just wanted to know his name,
I think I loved him, it’s a shame.
He doesn’t realise when I’m there,
How do I tell him that I care?
He’d probably decide to run,
If I told him he was the one.
After all, he is just my crush,
Yet somehow he still makes me blush,
I just wish he’d acknowledge me,
Maybe he will, I’ll wait and see.
A sudden rush of excitement,
Pierces through me like a thin thread,
I see his name on my phones screen,
I rush to answer it quickly,
Even the sound of his soft voice,
Put a silly smile on my face,
I could see my mum laugh at me,
And my cheeks begin to turn pink,
All of this was so new to me,
Boys and the stomach butterflies,
It was strange how happy I was,
But also how sad I was too,
I had let somebody in,
I had let my walls and guard down,
But I know he’ll treat me nicely,
So all I can do now is smile.
I’ve never seen a girl so sweet,
I long for the day that we meet,
Her deep blue eyes make me stare,
And oh, the colour of her hair.
She reminds me of a princess,
I feel like I have to impress,
As cliché as I sound tonight,
I think it was love at first sight.
My eyes meet hers across the room,
I feel my heart go ‘boom, boom, boom’
It’s hard being a young boy in love,
When she is all I can think of.
I’d love to hold her all night long,
Sing to her, a lullaby song.
She’s so perfect in every way,
If only I could tell her hey?